Someday, on a Saturday
Have you ever been to a Kem Ibadah? I have. A few times actually. And I just got back from one yesterday. I am disappointed. But above all, I am bloody pissed off. Throwing shoes out of the dewan and screaming at 17 year olds? There's more actually but talking about it makes me more upset. I didn't sign up to be screamed at and to see shoes flying out of the dewan. I didn't sign up to have my emotions being played. The worst part about it, the ustazah and a few muslim teachers were all there. Behind, watching. That's all? As I stood there, listening to the facilitator screaming at us, I was wondering, why are they doing this? Who the hell do they think they are? My dad doesn't even even scream at me, and you're doing that, right in my face? For self-satisfaction perhaps. Cause' frankly, it was bloody obvious that he was enjoying himself. I put on a long face throughout the night. Who gives a fuck about the program anymore. No one did anyway. Everyone was upset. No surprise there.
Okay, I'll stop talking about it now. It makes me upset like shit.
Moving on, I am down with a fever right now. And a slight cough. I hate this. It makes me feel so weak and there's so many things to do today. I woke up this morning, feeling so helpless and read a text from Razak. Then it came to me, that I promised him a breakfast yesterday. So I forced myself up. Took a short hot bath and rushed to taipan. Managed to put on a cropped top, black skinny pants and a pair of loafers only. Pretty 'blah' but I was really sick. Really, really sick.
Met him at old town and didn't eat. Drank tea only and listened to him babbling about college. I am so tired of him babbling. I hope he reads this. Maybe then, he'd stop doing so :) Anyhoo, after 10 months, my phone has been showing tantrum lately. Might be changing it soon. Any suggestions? And don't say blackberry please, I don't get along with them, at all. So.. I should really get going now. Johan just called. He said Pn. Ananthi just cancelled tuition today. Sounds like I gotta study extra time today to cover up for the tuition hour.
Mhmm, I like the smell of new clothes.
-Ellisa Yasmine
